THE CHOICE IS TO EITHER STAB MYSELF IN MY HEART TWICE or just go ahead & be myself (and face fears)

This post is inspired by Elliott Smith. I snoozed through his time of fame. Or more accurately I was absorbed in other activities. His Waltz #2 is my favorite song right now. So beautiful and filled with sorrow. My fixation on that song and his story led me to be more relaxed on business phone calls and take some new risks at work. Really - I can try to do the things I am naturally good at / but held back by fear or I can stab myself twice in the heart.